My wife always had her period regularly so it was quite a surprise for her that she was delayed. Having lived in a house full of women (2 sisters, mom, household help), I kinda was familiar with some female issues and knew and read that possible causes of a woman having her period delayed aside from being pregnant are possible stress, change in environment, or something major that happens that her physical condition is affected in some way. With that in mind, we just figured maybe her body was adjusting with the new environment living somewhere else, and possibly the stress from the wedding and all... but no.
My wife was telling me a few days before she took the test that she was concerned already and will take a test over the weekend. I can still remember it. She woke me up on a Sunday to tell me that the pregnancy test she did turned out positive. I am telling you, even if I was only 1/4th awake, it woke me up so fast it really got me up. Unfortunately, to my dismayed wife, I wasn't one of those dads on tv or movies who jumps up and down and shouts "I'm gonna be a daaaaad!" I was far from it. I mentioned that it woke me up but it didn't get me out of bed. I layed there eyes wide open looking up into the ceiling as if my gaze was trying to look beyond it towards the sky.
I felt that I wasn't ready for this at all. Because quite honestly, we both were not. We were planning (and all our friends know this) that we were supposed to try early next year after we have spent a year together as husband and wife... husband and wife... gosh, I'm still even feeling weird typing that and now it's beyond that and it's now "dad." See?
As i gazed up, what ran into my head were things like I should earn more to support my family now. What else can I do? I need to save and put money aside already for the delivery... and tons more. It was like my mind was racing.
At first my wife was disappointed at how I reacted but I'm just glad later on that her close friends reinforced that it's just a guy thing to think ahead like that and look more into the future. But I do understand her side as well when she told me to at least enjoy the moment first finding out before thinking but at the same time, I cannot turn off being a man (that would be scary haha) and so I am just happy things got sorted out and she understood where I was also coming from.
From there, this journey began and the rest will be a 9 month history. Well, actually less than 9 coz we found out when she was more than a month in already so let's see.
Cy
No comments:
Post a Comment